Feel Good...

Met one friend today after many days, naturally I asked.
Hey how are you ? and he replied with a huge smile and very loud voice, I am superb......... awesome....... fantastic.....and my expressions were like, Dude, what's wrong with you ? is everything OK ?

See this is the problem, being happy has become abnormal now a days...
Had he replied me, yeah, I am fine ! I wouldn't have felt different...but being happy means being different or what..

On 1st of January when I woke up I saw my maid standing beside my bed and looking at me..
I had hardly opened my eyes, still sitting on bed and she held my hand with both of hers, gave a huge smile and said "happy thanku happy thanku"....and that brought a big smile on my face too, hey aaji happy new year to you too....and her wish made my day, the words were not correct, neither were they great but the emotions were!! and that's what create magic.........that felt no lesser than the new year party...

Everyday while going to office I see one young boy, he brings different things everyday and try selling them on the road when signal is on.

On independence day he wore the tricolor dress, made a tattoo on his face and was running between the vehicles flawlessly.
I wondered who else here is celebrating and enjoying independance day as much as him.
You know, white collared people sitting in cars indifferent about what's going on outside. They will open their mouth only if some important business call comes up. They will drink nothing but packaged water, they wont walk in a road shop ever. They need complete package everywhere.
Even while liking people. People should come with a package. Complete package of success, richness,looks......ohh ohh, seems like I have distracted a bit from my point!

So talking about the boy. I noticed one thing that day, people who were buying the flag were not those rich people who talk all the time about how other countries are so much better than India, but they were poor or say middle class auto rickshaw and truck drivers, chai walas or people going on bicycles.....why is that so ? I am not really a cynic, to say that all rich people have no feelings left for country or something like that, but somewhere I feel we have stopped living naturally, we are afraid to do what our heart asks us or may be we don't even listen to it...we kind of hesitate to do the things that set us free, that tell the world, see I am a kid, I can go anywhere do anything without being bothered of what other people are thinking about me...will talk about this later let me finish with the boy

On Christmas he wore red cap and was singing the song and selling the caps...Jingle bells jingle bells..madam ek cap lelo Christmas hai....I never bought anything from him, thought I should, so asked how much...20 Rs only....jingle bells jingle bells...I checked my purse and found 500 Rs note in it. Felt sorry, he ran to get change from somewhere and the signal was green. I dint know what to do, whether to throw the cap or what. Couldn't ask the driver to wait too as it was office cab, I decided to keep the cap for that day and giving money to him the next day. He saw the cab moving and for the first time I saw sadness and anguish on his face. I realized what value this 20 Rs might hold to that boy. It might mean dinner for one night, it might mean taking his mom to the hospital or it might also mean money for his father to drink alcohol.

Whatever it is, his expressions were something that stayed in my heart and made me realize that these people.....they don't freak out when recession arrives, they don't care what Obama has got to give the world, they don't talk about improving India and Pakistan relationships. All they think is whether they will have one roti to eat at night or not, whether they will exist or not after the winter is gone...This 20 Rs doesn't mean anything to me, but it does to people like them....

Man, what exactly is the topic of this post...let me go back and see what is the title...ok found, the title is Feel Good...and I got carried away to this extent....but its no bad !! you know let it flow the way it is...that's natural...I won't edit it !!

The point is next day he was up again with all his energy, selling caps again without worrying or regretting about the 20 Rs he lost. I gave 25 Rs to him (adding interest rate for one day) and a stupendous happiness arrived on his face !!

So feel good about whatever you are, wherever you are and whoever you are with. Because all you should do is like yourself and the current moment, rest becomes good automatically....

The traffic police I see everyday, his job must be pathetic(except for the bribing part) inhaling CO2 all the time and seeing same vehicles going to and fro...
The bus conductor collecting tickets for the whole day...
still their jobs matter a lot to the world...

So when I see people or say myself until some days before,

being sad about working at a small position in a big company,
or sad about working at big positions but in small company...

All I want to say is feel good, because it's not your where you sit or what you eat stays with you but what stays is how you felt about it....and what that moment meant to you!!